What happened to my confidence.
Thinking about the way I am today; a scared little mouse who always thinks of worse case scenarios, an anxious driver who can't imagine driving further than 10 minutes away and only if I know the route, a hermit who prefers not dealing with people, a worrier who can't deal with situations with lots of people, the list goes on. And I have learnt to deal with that as my normal.
But it really isn't is it.
A few years ago, I had a good job as a p.a. I dealt with people on the phone or in person on a daily basis.
And when I was a house cleaner, I used to drive all over the place to people's houses and chat to them quite naturally. I was popular with many customers.
What happened between then and now.
I'm not really sure. The transition has been so slow and methodical I can't remember when it changed.
But change it has.
I'm fearful and worried about everything.